Lost In Beauty-

Sunday, October 5, 2008

ku mencintaimu
lebih dari apa pun
walaupun tiada siapa yang tahu
ku mencintaimu sedalam-dalam hatiku
ku mencintaimu lebih dari apupun
walaupun tiada yang tahu
yakinlah kau lah cinta ku
yang ku cari dalam hidup ku...

i love eugene!!!!!!!!!!! MY EYE CANDY!!!!!!
wenever he passed by me n my frens, we'll go like "WWWWOOOOO!!!"
haha. Eugene, you're the top 10 most well loved ppl by dilah
and forever you'll be yea. you'll owes hav a special place in my heart
along with the other nine.:) i chose hamster not chipmunk k? hee.
LOVE YOU ALOT!

My beloved clique-worth alot more than anybodyelse!
Guys, I LOVE YOU GUYS TO THE VERY BOTTOM OF MY HEART!!!
from the over-the-top performances to diva-like times
to peeping n disturbing eugene 4 my sake to ponning PE
to gossiping abt u-know-hu to talking abt my boyfren abt wen xin's n irene's
to everything n anyting under the sun
and for that, i reali love u guys-alot alot
alot more that i can ever cherish a fren.

I love my gerfrens!!! YJC'S DREAM GIRLS!!!

W/o him, my maths is nth. thank u mr goh!

THIS IS SUPER HOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! thx guys for the post!
anw asfaris, u gotta be thankful that you're being rumoured with a ger like me!!
haha.

my project work grp

pauline, thx for owes being with me.

Mr goerge spencer!!! he calls me fad
he calls me "fad e famous"/"fad e freak"
u rawk man!!!!!!! the best caucasian ever!!!!

Thx for the cd album, yea?
and sori u hav to listen to stories abt my boyfren..haha

and...

NO MATTER WAT HAPPENS, I LOVE YOU GUYS FOREVER!!!!!!!

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Wednesday, September 24, 2008

Baby,

I love you. And I don't know if I can ever love anyone else the way I do you. But if loving you means letting you go, I'd do just that.

I have made a mess out of myself and I'm no longer fit to take care of you. I know not who I really am. To ask you to wait for me is like pushing away everyone in a refugee camp just to get a sip of water. That's selfish. A long time ago, we had our future perfectly planned out. Now, I'm uncertain of it.

Remember when I texted you yesterday to ask if you have ended school? I know you have because I was watching you from the train platform. You took the escalator on your left, the one beside the stairs. Your hair has grown longer since the last time I saw you. I was too afraid to go up to you and say, "Hi". So, I went home. I did you wrong. What right did I have to talk to you?

I'm going away soon and it's killing me just thinking of that. For now, just get through with your 'A' levels and think of nothing else. Have fun with friends when you need a break. For me, I'll go into exile for rehabilitation. I hope you understand why I'm doing this.

Just remember that I'll never leave your side if you need the extra strength to carry on. Be strong for me. It is not any easier for me either.

I was able to post this because I never did forget your password the day you told them to me.

I'm sorry if I've invaded your privacy.

Love,
Bushuk

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Tuesday, September 23, 2008

Happy birthday. this may be something cliche
but i'll still say it-hope all your dreams will come true.
Hope you like the graphic above. i love it cus it looks like bluebear.

Sent by God not by accident but 4 a purpose yea

so live up to it k. Just do your best for this exam

and let God do the rest k.

A mth plus w/o you wasnt easy.

i reali miss you alot.

Your simple words crushed me

and im still hurt and destroyed.

Many things happened. And things wont be the same anymore.

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Saturday, September 20, 2008

sharing with you..

It's my first time. As i lie back my
muscles tighten. i put him
off for a while searching for an excuse, but he
refuses to be swayed as he approaches me. He asks if im afraid and i
shake my head bravely.

He has had more experience, but it's the first
time his finger has found
the right place. He probes deeply and i shiver;
my body tenses; but
he's gentle like he promised he'd be. He looks
deeply within my eyes
and tells me to trust him - he's done this many
times before.

His cool smile relaxes me
and i open wider to give him
more room for an easy entrance.i begin to plead and beg him to hurry,
but he slowly takes his time, wanting to cause me as little pain as
possible. As he presses
closer, going deeper, i feel the tissue give
way; pain surges throughout
my body and i feel the slight trickle of
blood as he continues.

He looks at me concerned and asks me if it's too painful.
my eyes are filled with tears but i shake your head and nod
for him to go on. He begins going in and out with skill
but im now too numb to feel him
within me. After a few moments, i feel
something bursting within me and
he pulls it out of me, i lay panting, glad to
have it over.

He looks at me and smiling warmly, tells me, with a
chuckle; that i have been
his most stubborn yet most rewarding experience.
i smile and thank my
dentist. After all,it was my first time to have
a tooth pulled.

Naughty, Naughty!
what were you thinkin'?
PERVERT
I know what you were thinking!

what about now?

what about today?

what if we were meant to be?

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Saturday, September 13, 2008

I DID STH BAD YST!!
and i kinda hate myself for it
i forgot to wish WEI QIN happy birthday wen i saw her in sch last fri
ya ya im bad i noe
and here's to wei qin:

Dear wei qin,
im reali sori i didnt wished you in person
i was too caught up with my work
i was doing maths mah wen you saw me and said hi
i promise next year it wont happen agen
nonetheless, i wish you had a great day yst
a yr older means alot smarter hor
accompany me to zouk dis year k since u turn 18 oready??
haha. that "im sori" sign is for you.forgive me yea? >.<

With Love,
Dilah.

Anw, last fri, our principal gave us exam tips n motivational speech
wen i tink back, wat she said reali make sense
i reali hope i can do well for A Levels
i dun wana repeat
so nips and peeps, i wont be blogging often k
i reali nid to be a gud ger
and be more focused.

47 more days to A Levels
and im freaking out
but i noe Allah will give me strenght.

"dilah, i miss you"-BULLSHIT.

Your love is just a lie.

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Tuesday, September 9, 2008

i passed GP!!
CCCOOOLLLEEEEOOO!!
improved my eng lit
disappointed with my econs performance..
cud have done much better -.-"
very very very disappointed with sastera ppr
i hate the marker
its ok. a lesson learnt.

went to my buddies' bbq
GEREK SEY!!!
break fast with the
joke joke abit
laugh laugh alot
wasted that i cudnt overnite with them
it is wen im with them that im reali myself
i reali miss sec sch days..so much!!

i miss laughing out loud in class and canteen
i miss being the crowd pleaser
i miss being able to make my frens laugh
i miss telling them jokes
i miss migeul's eyebrow!! haha

DILAH:"miguel!! i miss your eyebrow!! make sure next time i see you your eyebrow still der hor
if not i shave your eyebrow ar!!"
MIGUEL: -.-" shy lar..
HAHA!!

i miss teasing jiahui condom lorr..
i used to call him that back in sec 2e2..
he was very horny back then
he called me durex lorr..
wah lau..jia hui, i love your mole!!
haha..i find it quite cute now
didnt quite spent personal time with him
duno why he's quite cold towards me now
but its ok
when things turn worse, it'l start 2 get beta. mole!

But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night that I will fall for you
over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another dayI swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find

This is not what I intended
I always swore to you I'd never fall apart
You always thought that I was stronger
I may have failed, but I have loved you from the start - second hand serenade

my buddies dunt judge me
they accept me 4 who i am
for me being over-the-top
being abit minah n an attention seeker
Nips and peeps, I LOVE YOU GUYS TO THE FREAKING CORE!!

49 MORE DAYS TO A LEVELS
and im freaking out.
but i noe Allah will give me strenght.

a second chance but it seems that it isnt enough.

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Friday, September 5, 2008

Today is already the 6th day of ramadan-fasting mth

yeah!!

if god can hear me rite now

i wan him to know how badly i wana pass A Levels.

hee..

these are wat i ate for break fast for the past 5 days

day 1: mee hoon + dessert-somsom

day 2: mee soto + potato ball

day 3: lontong + bengawan solo's cake

day 4: nasi lemak + bengawan solo's cakes

day 5: daging kicap + otak-otak

WAH!! if like this how to slim down!! -.-"

the day i tot i'd never get through,
actually was the day i got over you.
last week i came across this song
a song i can very well relate to
and here's to you:

» TAKE A BOW
The flowers are faded now Along with your letters
they will never See the light of day ‘Cause I’ll never take them out
And there’s no turning back It’s for the better
Baby I deserve More than empty words and promises
I believed everything you said And I gave you the best I had

So take a bow ‘Cause you’ve taken everything else
You played the part And like a star you played it so well
Take a bow ‘Cause this scene is coming to an end
I gave you love All you gave me was pretend So now Take a bow

The future’s about to change Before you know it
The curtain closes Take a look around
There’s no one in the crowd I’m throwing away the pain
And you should know that Your performance It made me stronger now

Well it must of been sleight of hand ‘Cause I still can’t understand
How I could never see Just what a fool believes
But the lies they start to show Tell me how does it feel to know right now
That I won’t be around So baby before I put you out

thx for everything.
all the best for exams yeah.

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